Morning didn't start very well. Going over to the summertime have drained out everyone. It was hard to get up from the bed. And my son decided to catch some virus as well. He had body temperature 38.8 by Celcius. Well... he had possibility to stay at home. But I had to get up to dress amd rum at work.
Wow! At work! During workingdays! Lots of people around me I haven't seen so long already! Fro this aspect the studies haven't been so good. I have missed my workmates. I have to be today here just 12 hours but it will be the best hours. I should be at school but there were some boring lessons today where from I can allow myself to miss. Lovely. I could hug everyone. So good to see them. Weekends are boring. Almost alwasys I am alone with just a nurse. Seems they have missed me as well because I got possibility to practice mesuring blood pressure.
I asked Age to measure my blood suggar. She cut through my finger arter! Or it seemed she did... She ticked me with the needle and clenched my finger to press a drop of blood on the measurer and... jee, my blood just squirt out so all table and wall was full of quite big blood spots. :P And Age was exaited! She said she had first time when something like that happened. Usually you have to squeese a lot before you get reasonable ammont of blood (it means - a drop) on the measurer. Well, anyway... My bloodsuggar was 6.4 and I wasn't eat till last afternoon and then as well just a little piece of chicken. And couple of weeks I haven't had any sweets or bread (no white nor black). I really mean it... So I am a bit worried about that but... Well, it didn't work when I was running around and telling them I am dying and they have to inject insulin in me! They just shrugged their shoulders and said So what!!!! How careless! :P Ah, alright.. I need to check my blood suggar now more often if I want to prevent diabetes...
Ah, and the news is that they start vote the year nurse and carer. I did ask from my boss where is the box where I should let in my voting papers one by one with my names. Kadi just laughed and told I can't do that because nurses are giving votes for carers. Sweet! Cheating won't go through! Ai-ai-ai!
It remains to me that life is the flower. And THAT reminds me it is really beautiful and sunshiny day and I should ask Maris to come have walk with me. Oh, and she is coming!!
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TADV list:
Subject: Youth evening 1st April...
...takes part at Tom ....at 19.00 like usually...
Will see you then... I will take a new book with... You can take with the youth prayer week storys also just in a case...
Kärt
Subject: Re: Youth evening 1st April...
Are you sure still it takes part at Tom? Or is it like that we all are going at Tom and there is a note on the door: APRIL! We get together at Mervi actually :)
Kind April to everyone... and smile more.
Karin
Subject: Re: Re: Youth evening 1st April...
Don't worry Karin, Kärt has no sense of humour.
Tom
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Youth evening 1st April...
Kärt doesn't have to have any. It is enugh you have, Tom.
So are we going to have barbecue?
Heleri
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Youth evening 1st April...
No barbecue today.
There will be party instyle of Wild West.
Dresscode - jeans, chequered flannel shirt, hat.
Take with - your own chewing tobacco.
Ticket on the door - 2 dollars per face, well-behaved girls will get it for half.
Planned - dance in line a la chicken
Tom
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Great... Where do I get schequered shirt?...
Oh I got one! :D I will dress up and then I go to have walk with Maris.!
Wow!! It is so late... I have farmacology's test tomorrow... But the night and whole day was just wonerful today ;o) Just couple sad moments but ... I want to go on ;o)
Youth evening was great as well. I had possibility to say what I do think about the youth in church and outside of the church and hopefully it will change a bit now. We decided to get together sometimes just for chat also. To get to know eachother better without trying always make those times so ecclesiastic ;o)
I need to buy vodka. Jakob has still high teperature. I haven't got it down. Maybe I should wrap him in a sheet what is moistured with vodka??? ;P
Showing posts with label Elu on ilus. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Elu on ilus. Show all posts
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
The girls night and what happened....
Back at home. Write about it tomorrow if I have filled all my duties for others :o)
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30th March, Sunday.
Well, duties are done. Even more I expected myself to do. I was in full swing and after I finished a letter I wrote I did as well an artickel for a journal I promsed to do couple weeks ago (it had to go in april number anyway so I wasn't late there ;o)). After all of it I suddenly realised that it was night where we had to turn our clocks on an hour. So it was not 1:30 but 2:30 AM and I had to get up on the morning at 6:00 AM. I am at work and half day is alrady passed. I have lots of works so I am in run all the time but I can allow some minits to sit here now. But anyway.. about the niht then...
It was about 7:20 PM when Maris called me she is on the way down from Riia hill and that she dropped her lifemate next to the first-aid centrum. His friend had to pick up him there sometime... I got just home and I needed to finish a infosheet for my
shurch so I asked her to get up at me. I did made some updates and sent the infosheet to my pastor. He didn't had glasses with today so he asked me to send it to him. We crabbed with the stuff we bought ealier during the day.
Kadri laughed when she saw us. We had too big bags for three of us. As planned we got some veggies like paprika, cauliflower, carrots, cucumber and tomatos. And some fruits like pieapple, apple, bananas and strawberries. Then we had 2 packets of Tallegg chicken wieners and a roll of pastry for pies. Maris got 3 packets of juice also.
When we start get ready food realised Maris she forgot dips so they went together Kadri at shop. I stayed there to prepear food. I did cut pastry for squares, wraped them around wienies and placed into oven. Then I washed veggies and started peeling and cutting them handful pieces for dipsouces.
Maris and Kadri returned and brought me flowers. Ah, they were so cute. ;o) 11 tulips. Well, they got the bunch of tulips for theirselves too. Good, it gave the feeling we have spring! Although watching outside told anything else. If I could find a way how to set up slideshow I could show it but I haven't managed to do that yet. Anyway.. Finally we were ready and we could go on wtiht our plans for the night. We set up boardgame "Eesti" ("Estonia") and started playing. Guess what, I won! ;o)
During the game we ate almost all rolls we made and veggies. Jee.. my tummy was full and got upset. But I didn't care much of it. I had forgotten my everyday problems because we had fun. After game we set up fondou pot and got over it. We had some fight in chocklat where we tried to steal others fruitpieces. I wonder we never pushed ovr the pot. Finally, when we were so full we could just lie on the ground we had some chat over school. The girls planned to go to "greenies" bicycle trip. It will take place in May and will cost about 500 krones for students. Just great, I had thought long time already to get a bicycle for myself and now I had just good reason to get it. I asked Maris to come with me look for a bicycle for me some day. She told that if I can't have it now she can barrow me one. Lovely. I just cant wait for it now. It would be great and quality time with friends and it is just what I need. So hard is find friends who would like to do the same things as I do. And now we got togethere and got to know that we had at least one good reason to spend more time together.
On the way back at home told Maris me that despite of my old age she takes me as the same age. And she likes to spend time with me. Great, just great. I like to be young.
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30th March, Sunday.
Well, duties are done. Even more I expected myself to do. I was in full swing and after I finished a letter I wrote I did as well an artickel for a journal I promsed to do couple weeks ago (it had to go in april number anyway so I wasn't late there ;o)). After all of it I suddenly realised that it was night where we had to turn our clocks on an hour. So it was not 1:30 but 2:30 AM and I had to get up on the morning at 6:00 AM. I am at work and half day is alrady passed. I have lots of works so I am in run all the time but I can allow some minits to sit here now. But anyway.. about the niht then...
It was about 7:20 PM when Maris called me she is on the way down from Riia hill and that she dropped her lifemate next to the first-aid centrum. His friend had to pick up him there sometime... I got just home and I needed to finish a infosheet for my
shurch so I asked her to get up at me. I did made some updates and sent the infosheet to my pastor. He didn't had glasses with today so he asked me to send it to him. We crabbed with the stuff we bought ealier during the day.Kadri laughed when she saw us. We had too big bags for three of us. As planned we got some veggies like paprika, cauliflower, carrots, cucumber and tomatos. And some fruits like pieapple, apple, bananas and strawberries. Then we had 2 packets of Tallegg chicken wieners and a roll of pastry for pies. Maris got 3 packets of juice also.
When we start get ready food realised Maris she forgot dips so they went together Kadri at shop. I stayed there to prepear food. I did cut pastry for squares, wraped them around wienies and placed into oven. Then I washed veggies and started peeling and cutting them handful pieces for dipsouces.
Maris and Kadri returned and brought me flowers. Ah, they were so cute. ;o) 11 tulips. Well, they got the bunch of tulips for theirselves too. Good, it gave the feeling we have spring! Although watching outside told anything else. If I could find a way how to set up slideshow I could show it but I haven't managed to do that yet. Anyway.. Finally we were ready and we could go on wtiht our plans for the night. We set up boardgame "Eesti" ("Estonia") and started playing. Guess what, I won! ;o)
During the game we ate almost all rolls we made and veggies. Jee.. my tummy was full and got upset. But I didn't care much of it. I had forgotten my everyday problems because we had fun. After game we set up fondou pot and got over it. We had some fight in chocklat where we tried to steal others fruitpieces. I wonder we never pushed ovr the pot. Finally, when we were so full we could just lie on the ground we had some chat over school. The girls planned to go to "greenies" bicycle trip. It will take place in May and will cost about 500 krones for students. Just great, I had thought long time already to get a bicycle for myself and now I had just good reason to get it. I asked Maris to come with me look for a bicycle for me some day. She told that if I can't have it now she can barrow me one. Lovely. I just cant wait for it now. It would be great and quality time with friends and it is just what I need. So hard is find friends who would like to do the same things as I do. And now we got togethere and got to know that we had at least one good reason to spend more time together.
On the way back at home told Maris me that despite of my old age she takes me as the same age. And she likes to spend time with me. Great, just great. I like to be young.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Out of home and body and mind....
Later today I will do that. I meet with some of my friends and we are planing to spend some good time together. Jou! The weather is just wonderful. Snow and sun! And the air is so clear. And today I will have finally some food! Mwhahahahahah! I have to because all we will do will be just delicous! Wieners in pastry; some vegetables iwit dips and chocolate fondue with bananas, pieapple, just apple, strawberry... Mmmmmm! My life will start again! :D
PS! See, Maris did a tatoo on my hand around a mole :p
PS! See, Maris did a tatoo on my hand around a mole :p
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Enough...
It must end. And it means I have to end it for my own interest. It is mentalillness how I do kill myself. My body eats me already... So lets ask some questions from myself...
Q: Am I ready to die for him?
A: I was... Mwhaahahahaaa... I still am... ;o/
Q: Ok... Am I forgiven for him?
A: Hmm... this is good question. Haven't I already? I would like to believe I am but sometimes... Ah, more likly I have not.
Q: Alright. If you haven't forgiven for him then... do you hate him?
A: I wish I could. How can you hate someone with one you have planned to live whole your life?
Q: How can you not hate someone who did it to you?
A: Would it be easier to hate? I don't think so. Humans need hope.
Q: What do you hope? That everything will changes and he is back at you?
A: I wish it would be like that...
Q: Do you think it is possible?
A: I dont know. But I will ask now!
Waiting for the answer...
Q: Seems he never answers. What would you do if his answer is negative?
A: I wouldn't like it.
Q: But...?
A: I should accept it. ;o) And end it all. I have even thought how to do that. Till the pain is part of our lives and it won't go anywhere then I just have to learn to live with it. And it means I must stop blocking the pain and try to live with it.
Q: Are you ready to do that?
A: Not really. But I know I must. I have postponed it with excuse that I need to start eating propperly first. It haven't worked yet so why postpone it still...
Q: But what if his answer is positive? Could you trust him again?
A: Probably not. Or if yes then it would be very hard ;o)
Q: ...
A: Actually there would play roll some other things as well what would make being with him difficult.
Q: What things?
A: Does it matter?
Q: Actually not... Why are you still so stucked on him then?
A: Because my life feels so empty suddenly, you know. I had so many years good memories with him and suddenly... Suddenly I have to get new memories ;o) I can't get them so quickly so I am a bit stucked on him still... a bit too much. But it has to changes, I know...
Still waiting for the answer... Muig... He has been whole night so talkative but not now after the last question. Probably he will send on the mornig an answer like "Sorry I didn't answer yesterday. I was tired and went to bed." Ja, that may happen. But I have to work. This night and next one as well...
I got the answer. It did surprise me.
Q: So??
A: Be patient. ;o) I am have to ask some specifying questions.
Q: But he did answer. How did it look?
A: Intresting. ;o) Well, he said yes and no. But after that he said something more what actually did matter more than his yes or no.
Q: I just don't understand why do you bother to care for him? He wasn't the one he told he is.
A: I know. ;o) I am telling that to myself every day. But a heart is slow to forget.
Q: But you told you would forgive to him.
A: And so what?
Q: So you would be with him again?
A: I don't remember I told that... But anyway. He gave me free and now I know his heart is not with me. Long time already. Sad but true. So it is all over and no questions anymore. ;o)
Q: Are you sad?
A: Yeah... but I would like to say something for closing...
Q: Yes?
A: We hold dear what we don't get, and let fly away things we have.
Q: What?
A: I am finished here. ;o) I don't want to hold dear things what I don't have ;o) I have to go now... Bye.
Q: Am I ready to die for him?
A: I was... Mwhaahahahaaa... I still am... ;o/
Q: Ok... Am I forgiven for him?
A: Hmm... this is good question. Haven't I already? I would like to believe I am but sometimes... Ah, more likly I have not.
Q: Alright. If you haven't forgiven for him then... do you hate him?
A: I wish I could. How can you hate someone with one you have planned to live whole your life?
Q: How can you not hate someone who did it to you?
A: Would it be easier to hate? I don't think so. Humans need hope.
Q: What do you hope? That everything will changes and he is back at you?
A: I wish it would be like that...
Q: Do you think it is possible?
A: I dont know. But I will ask now!
Waiting for the answer...
Q: Seems he never answers. What would you do if his answer is negative?
A: I wouldn't like it.
Q: But...?
A: I should accept it. ;o) And end it all. I have even thought how to do that. Till the pain is part of our lives and it won't go anywhere then I just have to learn to live with it. And it means I must stop blocking the pain and try to live with it.
Q: Are you ready to do that?
A: Not really. But I know I must. I have postponed it with excuse that I need to start eating propperly first. It haven't worked yet so why postpone it still...
Q: But what if his answer is positive? Could you trust him again?
A: Probably not. Or if yes then it would be very hard ;o)
Q: ...
A: Actually there would play roll some other things as well what would make being with him difficult.
Q: What things?
A: Does it matter?
Q: Actually not... Why are you still so stucked on him then?
A: Because my life feels so empty suddenly, you know. I had so many years good memories with him and suddenly... Suddenly I have to get new memories ;o) I can't get them so quickly so I am a bit stucked on him still... a bit too much. But it has to changes, I know...
Still waiting for the answer... Muig... He has been whole night so talkative but not now after the last question. Probably he will send on the mornig an answer like "Sorry I didn't answer yesterday. I was tired and went to bed." Ja, that may happen. But I have to work. This night and next one as well...
I got the answer. It did surprise me.
Q: So??
A: Be patient. ;o) I am have to ask some specifying questions.
Q: But he did answer. How did it look?
A: Intresting. ;o) Well, he said yes and no. But after that he said something more what actually did matter more than his yes or no.
Q: I just don't understand why do you bother to care for him? He wasn't the one he told he is.
A: I know. ;o) I am telling that to myself every day. But a heart is slow to forget.
Q: But you told you would forgive to him.
A: And so what?
Q: So you would be with him again?
A: I don't remember I told that... But anyway. He gave me free and now I know his heart is not with me. Long time already. Sad but true. So it is all over and no questions anymore. ;o)
Q: Are you sad?
A: Yeah... but I would like to say something for closing...
Q: Yes?
A: We hold dear what we don't get, and let fly away things we have.
Q: What?
A: I am finished here. ;o) I don't want to hold dear things what I don't have ;o) I have to go now... Bye.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Thank you
I would like to shout over the street: "Thank you!!" that everybody could hear because I am really thankful to somany people.
But I am not shouting ;o) I just feel so tired and miss to get into my bed under my blanket and see colorful dream about me being happy. Because I really am today ;o)
Hei J., I haven't forget you too. You are the one I would like to thank specially. It has been a good day today ;o) Let it be like that also tomorrow and day after that. Kiss and nn.
But I am not shouting ;o) I just feel so tired and miss to get into my bed under my blanket and see colorful dream about me being happy. Because I really am today ;o)
Hei J., I haven't forget you too. You are the one I would like to thank specially. It has been a good day today ;o) Let it be like that also tomorrow and day after that. Kiss and nn.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Russian fear
I don't know what means war. I have seen it on TV and read from books. But it's all nothing what means real war around you. Listening news and seeing them on TV, reading them from newspaper is painting a picture in my mind where Russia as big brown Bear skin is lying next to the colorful Europa and how it just rises his smelly forepaw and streches it over Estonia. And colorful Europa is a bit smaller again.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
I have a life now
It is the bonus of gameless life. Now it is just needed to decide what to do with the life I have.
P A N I C ! ! !
P A N I C ! ! !
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Gameless
It is my third day without games.
Actually I was one night (I mean yesterday) thinking already to install Civ III again and denay it for Derek. But I felt really bad after the tought. It is so sad how weak I can be. It is so hard to give up with pointless things and start doing something useful. Something what has meaning. I. e. to think out a project for street people to get them back into normal life, or translate biblestudy materjal for children, or excercise or whatever else.
Actually I made exercises! 15 sit-ups on the morning. And then the same for my back and then some lifts for my legs! It was even second time already. First was about 3 days before it. Now I just have to try to keep it every morning ;)
I have to make a list from stuff what are important and with point in my life. What could I do beside playing games and watching TV. How can I change my life more active.
I will do that tomorrow!
Actually I was one night (I mean yesterday) thinking already to install Civ III again and denay it for Derek. But I felt really bad after the tought. It is so sad how weak I can be. It is so hard to give up with pointless things and start doing something useful. Something what has meaning. I. e. to think out a project for street people to get them back into normal life, or translate biblestudy materjal for children, or excercise or whatever else.
Actually I made exercises! 15 sit-ups on the morning. And then the same for my back and then some lifts for my legs! It was even second time already. First was about 3 days before it. Now I just have to try to keep it every morning ;)
I have to make a list from stuff what are important and with point in my life. What could I do beside playing games and watching TV. How can I change my life more active.
I will do that tomorrow!
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Finally a good decison in my life
I uninstalled and delited all my games.
Yes, I did it.
I am gameless.
And yes, I am not feeling very good because of that what doesn't mean anything more than just - I am an addict. I am admitting it. And I made firts step to get rid of my addiction - I did deleted all games from my notebook. I cleaned my life from pointless, useless and timewasting things!!
I DO HAVE A LIFE NOW!
That I could fill it with new pointles, useless and timewasting things . . .
Yes, I did it.
I am gameless.
And yes, I am not feeling very good because of that what doesn't mean anything more than just - I am an addict. I am admitting it. And I made firts step to get rid of my addiction - I did deleted all games from my notebook. I cleaned my life from pointless, useless and timewasting things!!
I DO HAVE A LIFE NOW!
That I could fill it with new pointles, useless and timewasting things . . .
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Elu on tõesti ilus juba
Tõesti taevalik! Jõudsin koju, et tegeleda kohustustega, mis vajasid kiiret lahendust ja näe, kõik oli juba peaagu valmis. Tänu muidugi Margele ;o)
Ikkagi. Kergendus. Ja samas - mis ma siis nüüd selle äkitselt sülle sadanud vabadusega teen? Kas paneks oma idee ikka paberile? Pfftt!! Samas jälle, kuidas sa seda siin laadakäras ikka teed. Tahaks häält tõsta, aga tõenäoliselt on see siin kõik lihtsalt minu iseloomu kasvatamiseks. Olgu siis pealegi. Istume vaikselt ja mõtleme elu ilusamatele hetkedele.
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Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
Love is what makes life beautiful because God is love.
Life is beautiful if you look from God' perspective.
God is the ultimate author. Life is God's story. Your life is the most beautiful narrative ever crafted! Do you live as if it were true?
Ikkagi. Kergendus. Ja samas - mis ma siis nüüd selle äkitselt sülle sadanud vabadusega teen? Kas paneks oma idee ikka paberile? Pfftt!! Samas jälle, kuidas sa seda siin laadakäras ikka teed. Tahaks häält tõsta, aga tõenäoliselt on see siin kõik lihtsalt minu iseloomu kasvatamiseks. Olgu siis pealegi. Istume vaikselt ja mõtleme elu ilusamatele hetkedele.
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Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
Love is what makes life beautiful because God is love.
Life is beautiful if you look from God' perspective.
God is the ultimate author. Life is God's story. Your life is the most beautiful narrative ever crafted! Do you live as if it were true?
Friday, May 18, 2007
Elu on ilus - ilus on elu
Kaks täisesti erinevat väidet.
Hämmastav!
Ja mismoodi ma selle siis luuleks sean?
Sees kraabib miski nagu rott sahvris. Nii kui üritan enesesse vaadata on kiibitseja kadunud. See küll ilus ei ole. Aga ma tean, et rott on seotud onu Tommiga. Tuska teeb see komejant, mis matustel toimus. Mida oli seal siis enam halada ja kahetseda ja pisaraid valada. Elu ajal ei pandud teda ju miskiks. Tõugati aga eemal igalt poolt. Vaadake elavaid enese ümber ja elage nendega nii, et matusel ei peaks enesehaletsuses pisaraid valama - "mis ma talle küll tegin!" stiilis. Laske tal nüüd surnud olla.
Mnjah. Vat kus maailma parandaja . . . Ja kus oli mu süda siis, kui ta vastu kalapoe seina kuses?
Hämmastav!
Ja mismoodi ma selle siis luuleks sean?
Sees kraabib miski nagu rott sahvris. Nii kui üritan enesesse vaadata on kiibitseja kadunud. See küll ilus ei ole. Aga ma tean, et rott on seotud onu Tommiga. Tuska teeb see komejant, mis matustel toimus. Mida oli seal siis enam halada ja kahetseda ja pisaraid valada. Elu ajal ei pandud teda ju miskiks. Tõugati aga eemal igalt poolt. Vaadake elavaid enese ümber ja elage nendega nii, et matusel ei peaks enesehaletsuses pisaraid valama - "mis ma talle küll tegin!" stiilis. Laske tal nüüd surnud olla.
Mnjah. Vat kus maailma parandaja . . . Ja kus oli mu süda siis, kui ta vastu kalapoe seina kuses?
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Onu Tom
"Esiteks - ma keerasin vee kinni. Gaasiahju torud tilguvad."
"Ah nii. Ja teiseks?"
"Ja teiseks - onu Tom on surnud."
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Kas me matustele läheme?
Muidugi! Tuleb minna.
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Mina küll teda peale ei võta. Ma ei kannata seda vingumist: ära sõida nii ja ära sõida naa. Ma ütlen, et ma sõidan juba täna sinna! Või et ma võtan tööristada kaasa ja lähen Habda juurde pärast ning tulen alles reedel tagasi!
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Ei. Me läheme ikka Armsa džiibiga. Hommikul kell 8 valmis olla. Ma teen soolase kringli ja rabarberi koogi. Lauda ei ole meid muidugi kutsutud. Raha polevat ja klassivennad olla kutsutud. No mis iganes, me läheme pärast Habda ja Katriini juurde, sööme kõhud täis ja siis koju.
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Ema! Pea ennast korralikult üleval! Ära unusta, et meie valime sulle vanadekodu!
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Ema! Ma pean autao kinni ja sa lähed metsa! ja ütleme, et umbes kell neli tuled metsast välja ja me võtame su tagasitulles peale. Aga võibolla anname hoopis gaasi, sest vaatame, et "Karu tuleb!"!"
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Ta ütles, et tal hakkas halb. Sain justkui aru, et kõht on lahti ning et ta läks põõsaste poole. Tund aega hiljem leiti ta hoopis põllult näoli maas. Epilepsia atakk. Huvitav, et keegi teine ei teadnud tema krambitamisest midagi. Urmas küll teadis, aga mitte meie. Ta lamas näoli mullal, pulk kõhu all. Tõenäoliselt ei jõudnud ta seda hammaste vahele panna . . ."
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Ja see mutt oli ka seal! Küllap nad seda veel kahetsevad sisemalt. Ta ju ütles ka Tõnisele, et ta ei tule enne Aasse, kui onu Tom on sealt läinud. Aga onu Tommil oli ju eluaegne elamisluba seal. See oli Emme testamendis sees. Aga nad ajasid ta sealt välja.
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Toomas oli hella südamega mees. Ta ei kaevelnud kunagi. Aitas alati kus sai. 5-6 aastat tagasi ladus ta meil puuriida, mis seisab tänini. Tõenäoliselt seisaks ta veel ei tea kui mitukümmend aastat. Nii tegi Tom asju. Ja vaielda armastas ta. Eriti just poliitika üle. Ma arvan, et kõik, kes teada tundsid, on vaielnud temaga sel teemal. Huumori soon oli Tommil hea.
Ning teiseks tema armastatud valdkonnaks olid taimed, eriti astelpaju, millest ta võis rääkida tundide viisi. Ta istutas isegi ühe astelpajupõõsa meie naabri parki, nii rääkis ta memme ära. Ja teiseks taimeks, või puuks oli kask. Maarjakask. Seda puud armastas ta isegi nii palju, et ühel päeval tuli ta meile hulga maarjakase seemnetega, mis ta oli 800 krooni eest ostnud. Vot selline mees oli Toomas.
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Ma arvan, et ma nägin onu Tommi reedel. Ta oli nii purjus ja kole. Ma mõtlesin, et hüüan teda. Aga ei hüüdnud. Ta oli turu juures ja pissis vastu Kalapoe seina.
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Neid maarjakase seemneid ma isegi mäletan. Ma vaatasin, et Pille läks endast välja ja hakkas nutma, kui Kalju seda mainis. Ju ta tundis ennast seepärast halvasti. Toomas viis need Pillele, et ta need aeda istutaks. Ja Pille tõi need hiljem talle tagasi visates need köögilaule. Sel päeval onu Tom nuttis nagu laps. Leena ütles, et ta ei olnud kunagi näinud Toomast niiviisi nutmas. Onu Tom töötas ju nende juures ka nagu sulane. No nagu vana mees, kellel ei ole kusagil olla, ja tunneb, et laste juures on kõige parem. Pille ajas ta ju sealt ka ära. Just peale esimest epilepsiahoogu. Ta kartis, et viimati onu Tom sureb ära seal. Mida siis küll teha . . .
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Ja uskumatu, ta ütles et vana Räis oli ka seal! Ma ütlesin, et mis ta ajab hullu juttu! See ei saa võimalik olla. Ma küsisin, kas Urmas ka seal oli. Ta ütles, et oli jah üks kena noorem poiss - veidikene sopsus. Ta ütles, et on tädi Anne lemmik poiss. Taevake!
"Ah nii. Ja teiseks?"
"Ja teiseks - onu Tom on surnud."
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Kas me matustele läheme?
Muidugi! Tuleb minna.
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Mina küll teda peale ei võta. Ma ei kannata seda vingumist: ära sõida nii ja ära sõida naa. Ma ütlen, et ma sõidan juba täna sinna! Või et ma võtan tööristada kaasa ja lähen Habda juurde pärast ning tulen alles reedel tagasi!
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Ei. Me läheme ikka Armsa džiibiga. Hommikul kell 8 valmis olla. Ma teen soolase kringli ja rabarberi koogi. Lauda ei ole meid muidugi kutsutud. Raha polevat ja klassivennad olla kutsutud. No mis iganes, me läheme pärast Habda ja Katriini juurde, sööme kõhud täis ja siis koju.
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Ema! Pea ennast korralikult üleval! Ära unusta, et meie valime sulle vanadekodu!
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Ema! Ma pean autao kinni ja sa lähed metsa! ja ütleme, et umbes kell neli tuled metsast välja ja me võtame su tagasitulles peale. Aga võibolla anname hoopis gaasi, sest vaatame, et "Karu tuleb!"!"
***
Ta ütles, et tal hakkas halb. Sain justkui aru, et kõht on lahti ning et ta läks põõsaste poole. Tund aega hiljem leiti ta hoopis põllult näoli maas. Epilepsia atakk. Huvitav, et keegi teine ei teadnud tema krambitamisest midagi. Urmas küll teadis, aga mitte meie. Ta lamas näoli mullal, pulk kõhu all. Tõenäoliselt ei jõudnud ta seda hammaste vahele panna . . ."
***
Ja see mutt oli ka seal! Küllap nad seda veel kahetsevad sisemalt. Ta ju ütles ka Tõnisele, et ta ei tule enne Aasse, kui onu Tom on sealt läinud. Aga onu Tommil oli ju eluaegne elamisluba seal. See oli Emme testamendis sees. Aga nad ajasid ta sealt välja.
***
Toomas oli hella südamega mees. Ta ei kaevelnud kunagi. Aitas alati kus sai. 5-6 aastat tagasi ladus ta meil puuriida, mis seisab tänini. Tõenäoliselt seisaks ta veel ei tea kui mitukümmend aastat. Nii tegi Tom asju. Ja vaielda armastas ta. Eriti just poliitika üle. Ma arvan, et kõik, kes teada tundsid, on vaielnud temaga sel teemal. Huumori soon oli Tommil hea.
Ning teiseks tema armastatud valdkonnaks olid taimed, eriti astelpaju, millest ta võis rääkida tundide viisi. Ta istutas isegi ühe astelpajupõõsa meie naabri parki, nii rääkis ta memme ära. Ja teiseks taimeks, või puuks oli kask. Maarjakask. Seda puud armastas ta isegi nii palju, et ühel päeval tuli ta meile hulga maarjakase seemnetega, mis ta oli 800 krooni eest ostnud. Vot selline mees oli Toomas.
***
Ma arvan, et ma nägin onu Tommi reedel. Ta oli nii purjus ja kole. Ma mõtlesin, et hüüan teda. Aga ei hüüdnud. Ta oli turu juures ja pissis vastu Kalapoe seina.
***
Neid maarjakase seemneid ma isegi mäletan. Ma vaatasin, et Pille läks endast välja ja hakkas nutma, kui Kalju seda mainis. Ju ta tundis ennast seepärast halvasti. Toomas viis need Pillele, et ta need aeda istutaks. Ja Pille tõi need hiljem talle tagasi visates need köögilaule. Sel päeval onu Tom nuttis nagu laps. Leena ütles, et ta ei olnud kunagi näinud Toomast niiviisi nutmas. Onu Tom töötas ju nende juures ka nagu sulane. No nagu vana mees, kellel ei ole kusagil olla, ja tunneb, et laste juures on kõige parem. Pille ajas ta ju sealt ka ära. Just peale esimest epilepsiahoogu. Ta kartis, et viimati onu Tom sureb ära seal. Mida siis küll teha . . .
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Ja uskumatu, ta ütles et vana Räis oli ka seal! Ma ütlesin, et mis ta ajab hullu juttu! See ei saa võimalik olla. Ma küsisin, kas Urmas ka seal oli. Ta ütles, et oli jah üks kena noorem poiss - veidikene sopsus. Ta ütles, et on tädi Anne lemmik poiss. Taevake!
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