What is worth a life?

I am disturbed after talk with Margo. I knew that people can be cynical but I hoped still on my pink way that there are some love in them. I don’t want to generalise. I am sure there are enough people who are not seeing things in so desperate way as he was doing. A view as everything what you are doing has to have monetary value for you. That everything you do has to bring money into your wallet. Or that men are coming and going in your life and you can’t do anything becayse IT IS LIFE! Oh please!

IT IS NOT LIFE. Life is exactly that kind of as you will live it. If you don’t expect anything else from it and are doing everything from yourself that it would bring only money in and that your lifemates are coming and going then yes, it will be like that.


Probably is my view on the world much more pinker than is his. You know, I am even proud of that. I am 30 and I have had lots of dissapointments in my life and lots of mistakes. But all that haven’t changed my pink views. I still believe there is kindness and everlasting love and I still would like to share my money all away between different persons. If I would win with lottery I would give some money for my mom that she could pay back all her debts and could buy a new car for herself, I would help my sister to renovate her house, I would put it in some fund what would help to build and manage a school for our church, etc. Of course I won’t win. Only because I am not playing lottery ;o) But it is not important. Important is that I know I would do that without regreting. I would share even Derek's money away if he would give it to me. Quite probable that he never gives any to me ;p But I do remeber he promised to set in a charity jar where we can gather some money for sharing it later for poor people. It is good idea but it doesnt satisfy me. I want that there would be some way to help people who has no homes or food or some other thing what it is needed for cover the basic needs of lives. And help them so that it will change their lives and they can manage theirselves on human way.

I hate thinkings „Why do you want to take ppl away from the street if they want to be there.“ Oh heaven sake! Who said that they want to be there? Yes, they have lived there some time already. Yes they have used with that because they have had no other way. Yes, they may not want to take help what someone is offering to them (maybe because of proud, maybe because they afraid, maybe because they have lost hope). But I am asking from you, dear – What would you do when life brings you on the street? Would you be happy with that kind of life? Would you want to stay there and never get back a life worthy of human being?


I dont expect that ther would be much ppl who would care about others. But I know there is some of who do. And that little part of humanity is the part I want to belong. God bless those people and God bless those who are not belonging there.